waiting for that other shoe to drop...

anyone who's ever had a good thing come to its end, nearly immediately after its started, you know exactly what i'm talking about...
the proverbial "other shoe."
and that other shoe often drops on me...
usually clunking me right in the damn head midst its plummet...

and what's sad?
sometimes i expect it.
seriously.
it's like i await its arrival like it's the mate to a brand new pair of Bottega Venata Lace-up Ankle Boot.
::drool::

and i don't even know why.

i mean, i know i deserve goodness in my life.
so why i would anticipate something to come along & mess it up, i sometimes cannot comprehend. i mean, it does happen. alot. and true that, if it wasn't for bad luck, i'd probably not have a bit of luck at all...

when the good begins,
i do wait...
for the good to end.
all too often.
whether i've found this said goodness in my job, my relationship, or maybe it's just how well the kids are behaving on a random tuesday evening...
it doesn't matter.
if the going is good, i will keep looking for the other shoe to fall, just hoping to dodge it before it strikes me in the noggin,
creating chaos & fuckery in its path.
i'm all to familiar with that anyway.

funnily enough,
i LOVE shoes. ooh i do.
i love owning them, but i hate wearing them.
and if i must, put me in a pair of birkenstocks or flipflops.
i do believe in the given rule of, "open toes, til it snows"
...then i wear socks...

why i stalk a shoe i'd never want to really wear to begin with, i do not know.
go figure.

ooooh i wonder if i can get that boot in brown?!?!!?